I feel revolted by the vulgar nature of my last post but those kind of thoughts and words are the very things I am exposed to every day at work. I really just needed to rant. I have been sporadically searching for other “day” jobs as I can’t take it anymore and I know sometimes it takes 2 years or more to establish yourself with your own business. In the meantime, I need an income.
Job searching stresses me out more than anything. I know I’m qualified, competent and a reliable employee. Iknow I’m a fast learner and that I am smarter than the general population. I know this because I have worked with the general population for 14 years and in that time I have become so dumbfounded at just how stupid most people really are. I guess I need to hide the fact that I am a misanthrope. I can work with people in business situations though with no problem. I think understanding their stupidity is the key to getting through to them, ironically enough.
As far as personal relationships are concerned I don’t like getting close to people. I don’t let people in. Recently I have developed my first close adult friendship. It’s interesting because we are so different, yet have the same sense of humor. She’s a mom, she’s not terribly interested in animals and I’m a CF animal freak. She’s also considering having another child, which I told her I would be supportive of if that’s what she really wants however I also voiced my concerns like any good friend should on being prepared. I’m not worried about her changing into a different person because she is already a mom. If it was a friend who became a new mom then I might expect a change in personality, but I’m not worried. I am worried though that she is not listening to her heart though because she has always said she is happy with one kid because she has a good kid who is smart and polite. I warned her that the next one might not be so wonderful. I am convinced that when a family has 2 kids at least one of them ends up fucked up. Although, of course her husband wants to try for the almighty golden boy to carry on the family name. Why are most men so arrogant in that way?
They have also been arguing and think the new baby might help their relationship. As someone who’s logical, I see making sure your relationship is as solid as possible before taking on such a big responsiblity. However, she’s emotional right now because her daughter is going to be a teenager soon and I think her husband is preying on that. And we all will do anything to please the one we love…….I told her to take some time and think about it- to do what’s in her heart. However, giving in to the one you love is sometimes unavoidable.
I caved when Adam wanted to get $300.00 tickets to see Roger Waters in November, but Adam does deserve those tickets and he may not ever get a chance to see Roger Waters again- he’s getting old. A baby is different and I know Adam would never ask me for a baby. He has never wanted kids. I was the one that used to be on the fence, not him. I will say if he told me he truly wanted kids though I would have because I would do anything for him. Luckily he wants other things- like Roger Waters tickets and vacations. 
Lately, my inner feminism has been getting me riled up lately due to the stress from work. I realized the kind of man I have is one who would be just as outraged at the vile disgusting comments as I am. Adam is always so supportive and loving sometimes I feel like I give him way too much drama.
I’m surprised and relieved I am married to a man who is unlike any other man I’ve ever met. I’d swear he is from a different planet. He has to be. He’s so amazing. I want to do something even more special than the tickets for him because he just deserves the world. He is the best!
